ive been back a while now so i should really have posted this a month or so ago, saw my mum and had a great time, im still fighting to stay clean and its working. never thought id see the day i could say that!!! been using one drug or another for so long, now im high on life!!!! this in its self has its ups and downs, im just getting used to the coming down without using, i want to alot but dont need to, i dont write very often & when i wrote the above poem it took alot of looking at how bad i felt about me and how i lived my life. things can change is what i had to realise if i choose to change them, now i only change what i can for the better, the rest has to wait till i can make them better thanks everyone, john