hi kate, john here, can't get to read the poem! must have been written on different format to the xp im using could you please write it in as a disscussion. i really want to read it. touched by your post! keep up the good work!! staying clean is all i have left, ruined everyones life i came into contact with and was completely uncontrollable, begining to find that if i dont ruin my life the chances are i wont ruin anyone else (HOW IRONIC), as i was only intent on ruining one life, now thats the one i have to cherish to stop everyone else being affected. please repost the poem, it has taken an enormous show of strenght from you to post it in the first place and i appreciate that, hope you and Ashleigh had a wonderful xmas together and are looking forward to the new year ahead, im going to Glasgow on saturday going home, second time in the one year could be becoming habitual!!! going home my biggest fear has now become my biggest joy (im still scared). but i no longer run and hide from my feeling like i always did, Face Everything And Recover, i was told and i'am doing that to the best of my ability, thanks kate take care of yourself and your Ashleigh love and best wishes for the new year John |