Katie,
Can you try posting your poem again, Some how it didnt get posted or I didnt see it.
Im so sorry to hear about your little Lauren and Your Mom.
I know how hard it has been on you.
I dont blame you for turning to drugs either.
People do all kinds of things when they have to deal with grief.
Believe me, I have done alot of destructive crap myself.
The most important thing now is what you do with your pain and your grief.
I know you know that, you wouldnt be posting here and trying to help others if your didnt.
We have 2 choices when life throw us shit, either clean it up, and make it the best possible or live in shit, lol........
I admire you immensly, Im just so sorry you had to lose your little girl, NO MOM should ever have to live with that.
If there is anything i can do, anytime, or if you just want to talk about her, email me, ok???? anytime.
Love and Hugs Karen