Hi Shifting shadows.... I am so sorry to hear of your loss....

I lost my son 10th april this yr... he died of a heroin overdose.. i found a suicide letter.. he was... so we all thought happy as he had got himself a flat.. and was looking forward to moving in... he had been doing it up... he was a new user to heroin... but I can totally understand what you are going through at the moment.. the terrible guilt burden that you feel... but I believe that you wouldnt or couldnt have been able to have stop her.. she was in a place where you could probably never understand,... Karena is at peace now... she will never have to suffer any more from any more worries that were burdening her... she is whole and happy now... that is what i believe of my son.... drugs are a very depressing thing.. one minute you are very high.. but with highs as high as that have to come lows... and i believe the lows are so low that you can not begin to believe your life will get better or change... and that was probably why your dear friend took her life... its such a tragic waste i know... she will always be walking beside you.... take things easy... try to get sleep and eat well... and rest as much as you can....its very very tough to understabnd and come to terms with.. its still very early days  yet... but honest hun... things will get better.. it will just take time.. lots of time.. you will one day be able to think of your friend and smile instead of cry  think of all the special times you shared...... my prayers and thoughts are with you and karena's family.... take care... Sharon xxx