just on here quick to say sara, don't give up on me!  i'll be back soon.  i took a shower at 10pm and changed from one set of pjs to another.  that is how my day was today.  but i'll be back soon - if i'm not on here this wknd i'll definitely be on here monday to read all the posts.  my cold is still here - lingering.  but things are looking up a little i think.  we are expecting a real snowstorm this wknd.  prob no big thing for you but big deal for us so we stocked up on food and movies! 

lol, no prob.

 

I'm here alone with Timmy now. The girls are at the sleepover birthday and Andrew left for his meeting (though he left quite late cause his cousin and her boyfriend were here visiting.) Here comes a big blab but I'm feeling beyond ticked. I know he'll end up socializing after so he'll be at the meeting LATE. Then, he has to drop off a Windows CD at a friend from work's house and I can almost guarentee he'll stay to play a video game or something.

 

Tomorrow, I wanted time for myself in the afternoon, to make apple sauce. His dad called and needs his help with computer stuff. So, there goes that idea. Plus, I can see him somewhat inviting a friend from church (or, being put in a position where he'd have to say no and risk possibly hurting the friend.) AUGH

 

I'm so sick and tired of being put on the back burner time and time again. I''ve brought this up so many times and it doesn't make a difference or he doesn't really get it.

 

I'm trying really hard not to throw a fit and be mature about everything, enjoying tonight with just Timmy and when he goes to bed, time for just me. But, I don't want to do stuff by myself, yet again. Especially knowing that everyone else comes before me. So, when Andrew asked if I wanted him to call after the meeting was done, I said don't bother because I figure that he'll be staying super late at it anyways and then he's going to Ben's and will likely be there for a while. Mature response, eh?

 

I'm not feeling the best as I was starving for supper and then scarfed down McDonald's fast. So, that's not sitting well in me AT ALL. Plus, didn't sleep well again last night and then Timmy woke up WAY earlier than he normally does! Sheesh! I was so looking forward to my first day to sleep in and was awake almost an hour earlier! lol Figures! I think I should force myself to have some down time though. I really need to get back into reading as it was a big stress relief for me, rather than tv. But, I find that I just don't want to. I should though. Timmy had a late nap but I think he's tired now so I'm goign to try to get him to sleep and do a quick tidy of the dr table, make a tea (still gotta have a stinkin' tea) and find a book (though it'll have to be non-fiction! ACK)

 

Enjoy your snow storm! We're getting a bunch right now though it's nothing too big. I kinda wish I lived in a place where any amount of snow was a huge big deal and left us stuck at home!

 

Have a good week-end! I'm going to get off of here before I start whining some more.