ugh car repair costs!  not fun.  can you take andrew's car to your family's?  not a good time of year for that stuff, is it?

 

i'm not doing much here.  need to get it together.  i'm puttering and working but doing all the wrong things like folding laundry.  debbie is a wonderful person who is totally not judgmental about houses even though hers is completely perfect all the time (she is the one who is actually ashamed of that).  but since she only comes her every couple of years or so, i'd like to show her some parts of my house and i don't want to do that if it's dirty ya know?  i already feel like i can't show her the bedroom because the carpet is so stained.  at least it will be dark which will hide a lot!

 

need to prioritize here.  scott just said he won't be home 'til 7 so the job i had for him i'll need to do - i wanted him to move the reindeer (my big wire ones that belong outside but i keep them in the living room - neither will light this year for some reason :-(  so i have to put them elsewhere - they don't look good unlit).  i wanted them back in the attic or garage but since i have to do it alone i'll put the other one down here (one is already down here from when he was trying to fix it sunday while watching football).

 

braeden is SO high with christmas spirit.  he's looking for things to do around here.  he keeps hugging me.  he's not giggly, just sweet.  i've talked to him about 3 times about not getting his bubble burst.  he's so excited about us opening the gifts he got us.  and about having erik and meemaw here and scottie & jesse and all of our traditions.  i'm like, "you know it won't be perfect, right?"  and we talked about summer camp - the special one he can go to that costs a lot and you have to get admitted - the first year, after 3rd grade, when he went he cried every day.  then last year he didn't want to go.  this year he wants to go and i said you're not going to cry are you? and then i realized how different he is now than 2 years ago.  he goes "of course not mom" but in a sweet way like he knows what he put me through (i'd sit in the parking lot and cry after i left him crying each day!).

 

i hope things start looking up for you.  just focus on the kids and try not to think about bad stuff, okay?  i'll probably get crazy and start being perfectionist around, oh, six or so and then be back on here going "help!" lol.