LOL on the markers. yes a baby with markers is very scary!

 

andrew definitely should not have done that.  i hope you can find a neutral party.  your parents don't need to be involved.  i hope you can continue to be mature even tho he's not being mature.  i think you have a lot of stress right now and with not being on the antidepressants it's harder for you to deal with it.  once the baby comes hopefully you can go back on meds.  not that i'm saying that you are just overreacting because you're not on meds but i know that they helped you deal with andrew when he acted like an idiot before.  i know mine are helping me even when it really is something someone else shouldn't be doing, to keep it in perspective.

 

maybe the big kids can watch timmy for you for a bit.  i hope.  so you can get something done.  i remember that age.  funny and adorable but NOT easy to get anything done.  i miss it now though but if i had one again i'd be feeling the same way you do!

 

you need to find a less stressful way to relax ROFL.  j/k  i could relax if i could scrapbook but i won't do it because the mess would stress me out more.  i was thinking i'd like to turn erik's room into a room just for me but there are so many other uses for it.  we wanted to put the playroom cabinets in there so the playroom could be more of a family room but that wouldn't be for a few years.  it's such a small room though - i'm not sure i could have a nice scrapbook room and office plus a bed for erik without getting frustrated. 

 

i need to prioritize and figure out  my list. 

 

oh yes, i got an ultrasound and then the dr said, let's try something. so he shoved these tubes into my muscles (i saw blood all over the sheets before the tech covered it up and said "you weren't supposed to see that!") with numbing agents to see if the pain is local or coming from my back.  well that left me with mega bruises and pain because he was moving the tubes or needles or something all around in the already very painful area!  ack