Ugh my neck has been giving me problems off and on for about a week or a little more.  So I called Wednesday to get a dr apptmt. The pain is like a bad toothache up under my skull in back and when I have it I'm so miserable!  So I go to the dr Thursday and dh was home so he went.  I also went for the bronchitis cough I still have.  The dr spent a long time on the cough and then pretty much said "have a nice day" and I said "wait, I'm having a problem with my neck." And he said "take some Tylenol" as he walked out of the room.  And dh said "no, seriously, she's having a real problem" and the dr just dismissively waved us off, said "see an orthopedist" and left.  I was stunned.  I have told dh in the past that I don't think our dr, who is usually very nice and yesterday seemed totally out of character, takes me seriously but he at least usually looks at what I want him to look at!  Dh was also stunned.  I was shaking when I wrote out the payment and started crying before I got to the car.  From being dismissed and from knowing I'm going to have to deal with this pain longer.  As soon as we got home Scott looked up orthopedic doctors and I made an apptmt in two weeks.  I wanted my own doctor to look at it to possibly get some relief NOW but I'm very lucky I could get in to see an orthopedist in two weeks.  I expected months.  And I'm looking for a new regular doctor now.

 

Anyway, I didn't have the pain when I went so I guess I didn't look miserable enough.  I had it bad when I woke up yesterday but then lay down, which normally makes it worse, and it got better.  But it tried to come back last night and this time instead of babying my neck as I have been doing, all night I kept jerking it.  And it's stll there but not bad - kind of in the wings.  I'm positive something is caught or pinched.  Ibuprofen does nothing to help it and the pain is either here or not - if it were a pulled muscle it would hurt all the time wouldn't it?  Or at least all the time if I move it.  It will totally go away for a time but in a random way.  No idea yet what is triggering it!

 

So that's my story.   That and I've worked myself up about possibly having MS.  I read all the symptoms last night and I have so many but the numbness episodes are a big indicator and early warning sign of it. 

 

I'm going to try to be positive today and not go back to bed for 30 minutes before I have to shower to go to the school.  Just in case my MIL, who hasn't responded to our Saturday dinner invitation, decides to come up I need to get some cleaning done this afternoon.  And I'm weighing in to WW finally at noon.  So no snoozing!  My wieght at the dr yesterday was 24 lbs more than when I STARTED losing weight 18 months ago.  In other words, 74 lbs more than my lowest weight.  That is a ridiculous amount to gain in a little over a year.  I have been eating nonstop as almost a hobby.  I still can't believe how fast it's going up but saw an ad for Abilify, the drug I'm on, and it said significant weight gain was reported.  I don't know if it's that or the serious eating but I know I've eaten this much and this poorly in the past and not gained as fast.  I need to get control!  I've gained more than 20 since I've been on the drug but I don't think it's a drug effect, I think it's just the eating.  I can't seem to stop!