Intense:
I am going to answer your question the only way I can, from my personal experience.
I can't tell you the cost of enlightenment because I'm far from it. I am lighter (in spirit and energy and even by a few pounds
) than I was when I made the concious decision to get back on the path and I can tell you the costs of that.
It cost my marriage of 19 years because my ex was "born again" while I was "waking-up". I supported her in her quest for spirit...she refused to even tolerate mine because it went against the dogma she was being fed. That consequently cost me the love and respect of my daughter, but thankfully she is now "waking up" and our bond is very strong.
It cost many friends who didn't like the changes that were taking place in me.
It cost me the price of facing my shadow and looking in the mirror and admitting, for the first time, that I didn't like who I was or what I had become. That was very expensive.
It cost me to enter and exit relationships with teachers and mirrors whom I admired and then was let down by...and the realization that I was really doing the letting down.
It cost me the price of admitting, for the first time, that I didn't have to be a "door mat" to be loved.
It cost me the price of admitting that I didn't know everything...in fact that I knew less about most things than I ever realized.
It cost me the pain of finding a partner and soulmate in a woman who helped to open my heart wide and then transitioned.
But in exchange for all of these things, I gained new self respect, a new, if elementary, understanding of the way the universe works and the ability to love myself, first.
I guess the balance sheet is even right now. I'm ready to write more checks and have made the spiritual deposits to cover them. In fact, the account just started bearing interest.
Submitted with love and light and humility
HealingHandz (Vic)
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