Firstly thanks to everyone for your replies and your kindness,

 

I have been searching on the internet and been looking on this forum as regards crystal and indigo children and found some very interesting stuff to read, although all the information seems to say crystal children were born from around 2000 onwards, but I suppose that doesn't matter, all I hear in my head is "you are, stop doubting".

 

As you are all so nosey, lol, I do have a problem distinguishing my own "inner dialogue" from that which could be from somewhere else, if you follow me. Sometimes I've been sitting there thinking about things and something has popped in my head and I just knew it wasn't me, but this hasn't been often. This may not be the right part of the forum to post this on but here goes anyway, lol.

 

When I did start becoming interested in developing, shortly afterwards I found myself in a very bad place, I had split with my g/f, away from my children, and most of the time I was by myself, I spent a lot of time meditating and reading books on psycic development, and I think I went a little overboard because it was pretty much all at once I started to have very intense experiences. One of which was at a friends house, he has been a friend for about 20 years (a long time seeing as I am only 27) but is now a heroin addict and I had been doing my best to try and help him to change his life, as it seemed he really wanted to. Anyway, sat in his front room there was a knock at the door and one of his friends came round (who was also an addict). Even before he entered the room I was in I was overcome by what I can only call hatred, and when he did come into the room, I felt my face change and all I can desccribe it as is it felt like I could have burnt a whole straight through this guy with my eyes. I had to force my self to look away from him as I could have got myself into trouble there, lol. It lasted for a few minutes and then dissapeared. I told my friend what I had felt about this guy and needless to say it didn't go down too well. I was so overwhelmed I don't think I explained it as subtley as I could have, lol.

 

Anyway I had to tell my ex about this experience and basically what it had come down to was my friends gran (who is in spirit) had put these feelings onto me, as she detested his friend as he was making his drug habbit worse. Also I found out from my friend later he had actually overdosed and died in his friends house (if you still follow me), and now thought of this guy as a great friend for bringing him back round again. My ex girlfriend, who is mentioned in my first post, is a really excellent phycic and has spoken to my friends gran, who said it was her who saved her grandson by putting all the energy she had into him to stop him fully passing away, and basically she didn't know how many more times she would have the energy to do this for him.

 

Anyway like I said, I think I should have put this in the experiences section of the forum, but it is here now, lol. This was my first major experience I have had, and as you can probabally tell, I can waffle on for Britain. I just think it is so nice for me to be able to share these things with people, I have tried to tell someone once, and they just thought I was bonkers, I could be, who knows, lol