Bloodlines
From the day I saw, I knew my life would never be the same.
From that you were born, I knew I had to be your big sis to protect you.
From the moment you came home, I knew life would change forever.
From the day you looked at me and called me sister, I knew you loved me.
From the day you sat and spoke your first words, I grew excited waiting for when we could talk.
From the second you could run, I knew it was fun and games from that day on.
From the moment I saw you shed your first tear, I knew I would cry with you always.
From the day I woke to when I went to sleep, I always prayed for you.
But there was one thing I did not expect would happen to you, my sister,
This one thing that has me all torn to peices inside, I don't know what to do cause I can't hug you right now.
As I wait for the doctors to take care of you, while I look for a place deep in my soul to be calm for you, I shake, I cry, I wonder why.
From that very first moment you were born, my blood, to the day you will die and beyond, I will love you.
I am sorry if I ever hurt you. Your my baby sister though only a 1yr, 1month, 1wk, 1day apart. I feel we are like twins at times. Sisters are suppose to hurt, but after all this time, I want to take it all back, and I never wish to take anything back.
[*My sister, only blood sister I have, 33yrs old, has full blown cancer of the breasts., she will one removed. They fear it has moved to her body, but hope they caught it in time. the only bad thing about this cancer she has, it never goes away, it comes back all the time. Right now, I just feel like writing out all the doc words. I have seen all the pics, and know it is definitely been with her for nearly a yr if not more. I would love to start a prayer list for her, from this point, if ya'll would love to go from this, please do. My heart is so broken right now. I am torn apart more than ever. She doesn't know how I really feel, I am being fully supportive! I LOVE HER AND WOULD DO ANYTHING SHE ASKS. I'd give up my breasts for her. she will have a new one made, but honestly I don't know that makes one feel through all this.
I was truely angry, but let it go, I was deeply sad, but let it go, I am just torn apart inside cause I can't hug her and hold her likes she needs and wants from us all.
Breast cancer runs in my family. Many women have died from it in my family. So, all the prayers I can get, I would be the most greatful human in the world for! You'll are as much my family here too.. I will end printing it all out when it's all done in a few wks or so. Even if I no one reads this and is ables to pass this along, paste and copy what you get in e-mails, I will know thoughts are there.]
All I know is.... I love her... I always have... I always will.
~ [c] Casandra G. ~ DLov Jan. 29, 2005 ~
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