Hi No1 Chef
So sorry to hear the way you are feeling. You are having a hard time of it all, even though most of the time you rise above it all, it gets too much for you to bear by yourself and you certainly do need a helping hand.
I get the feeling you will be offered some training or retraining with one of the Government agencies and this will help you with a better paying job and meeting other people who you will be able to socialise with.
I know you are tired and run down so it is harder to pick up where you usually do. Is there a reiki share place where you can go for healing for free or a minimal cost or donation?
Your soulmate could be anyone but I feel you will blessed with a loving companion soon and one that will give you a lift and a laugh. How long this lasts no one knows but I say companion as this what I feel he will be.
Your feet seem a little tired and a good rub would help. Are you wearing cheap ill fitting shoes or do you need a good comfie pair?
Your children are all busy doing their own thing and appreciate what you do for them. I hear lots of chatter and hurrying to and fro and lots of rushing to be at different places and always money, money, money is needed by everyone. If you can see money as a river, flowing in and flowing out but always there for you you may not worry so much. It is a never ending source and one of the many blessings we are given and that it comes and goes and is meant to be there to provide and not to hang on to so while the money is thin on the ground sometimes, your needs are provided for. I know you would like more and also an easier time with money but feel you have to put in a bit more hard work for it. I can hear you groaning not more work, but with some study to do something a bit more meaningful for you (and I don't mean cleaning is not as I have cleaned a lot of different times in my life) but in saying meaningful I mean using your capabilities and God given gifts. Please look into what training and courses you can do and work placement. With a bit more money in your pocket you will a whole lot better.
Chin up dear one, I am sending you a big hug and a big pat on the back as I know just around the corner is new life to behold. A bit of sunshine for you.
Love angelspeak