Sterling, I hope this will help you. I understand where you are coming from. My x was the same way. Just follow your feelings because they are your truths.

 

I used the Spirit of the Wheel cards, they give you area to meditate on to find your answers.

 

keywords for first card are new perspective, retreat, unity

prophecy: you have recently gone through a period of confusion and chaos that has left yhou feeling off center, with little control over your life. Silent retreat within creates a safe place where you can calmly gain some perspective on your life. As you journey within, clse off all the noise and interference of your outer world, Within this sacred space you are able to connect with your higher self and feel the oneness of spirit that will bring unity back into your life. This is an optimum time to work on developing your dreams and visions. From a place of balance and solitude, your true nature and potentiao will reveal itself. Pursue yourdreams with faith and trust that what you aspire to create comes from a higher vision, not from someone else's expectations. If you are working from a place of universal oneness than the ideas and thoughts that flow through your mind are truly inspired by the divine. Taking the time to retreat and gain some perspective will bring you into a state of balance, where your mind, body, and emotions and spirit are all working in sync.

 

keywords: oneness, inner growth, contemplation

Put all other areas of your life on hold and journey to the center of the whell. Here you find the sacred space to become one with the creator and pray for the guidance and healing you need.  This is a time of quiet contemplation and inner growth.  Rest your body, mind and spirit, and gather up the energy needed to move on to the next stage upon the wheel.Being at the center of the wheel offers a higher perspective on where you've been and the direction you are heading toward.  The medicine wheel card is a reminder to look for teachings in all areas of your life. It may come in the form of a phrase in a book, a cloud formation or even conversatioms with a stranger.Use this time wisely and remember to pray not only for your own path, but for all of great spirits creations. For if our prayers carry the highest  intentions, when the timing is right, we will be given the opportunity to move forward once again.

 

The 2 back up cards keywords are: direction. illumination, active growth, personal space. openness and faith.

 

I see these cards as telling you to take time for yourself, take time to listen to your inner self, your higher self, trust yourself and your thoughts, feelings and ideas.

 

By being in a calm place in your life you will know what directions to take in your life,  personal or occupation,

 

I hope this resonates with you and is helpful. If you have any questions please ask. If it's completely wrong, let me know that too. Mystic

Dear Morningdewstar and ssmystic, thank you so much for the readings I greatly appreciate you taking the time to read for me this helps me focus on what is most important in my life. Thank you Sterling