Hi Kate,
wow, you have already been given so many great replies, reading recommendations and food for thought.
Did you really like smoking? I don't think you did because otherwise you wouldn't have stopped and tried more than once to break free from nicotine's hold over you.
I also think that you are now over a month nicotine free (congratulations!!), but still think you might also want to have a look at this:
Feeling a bit blue at one month. (... Just one more thought: if you are depressed about things in your life, you might want to ask yourself if it might perhaps have nothing to do with having quit smoking and in that case: please, go and seek some help!)
You say: "Do YOU HAVE ANY ADVICE. I KNOW IT IS PROBABLY AS SIMPLE AS NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF. BUT THAT ADVICE OVERWHELMS ME AND DEPRESSES ME."
My piece of advice: how about forgetting about the "NEVER" - bit? I remember that I had real problems with that word in the beginning of my quit as well - the others have said it already but it is so true: take it one day, one hour ... at a time - they'll still all add up and one day you WILL come to the point where the thought of FOREVER will no longer depress you but you will be really, and I mean REALLY!!!, happy about it. Celebrate each and every single nicotine free you achieve and don't forget to be proud of yourself!
Kate, you really have set out on the most amazing, wonderful and rewarding
Journey home - may you enjoy it and let it lead you to being able to fully embrace life nicotine free!
Gitte
378 days and a bit