How Does a Female Become a Warrior?
There are several possibilities. She may start as little girl that grows up not feeling that her father provided the required safety and protection. It could be her father is absent emotionally or physically. Or she may have a father that expresses mostly the feminine energy, not modeling a mature male archetype. She may have modeled herself after a mother or other influential female that was a Warrior. She may feel betrayed or abandoned by one or both her parents. She may have felt, for whatever reason, she needed to play the role of the male and be the provider and protector of the family. She may have felt that she had to develop Warrior-like qualities to survive in the business world.
Whatever the reason, she puts on her armor and fights. She fights for herself, her family, her job, recognition and validation. She accumulates wounds and battle scars. And she has her conquests too. But her ego is over taxed and her soul cries out for retirement.
How Does Ego Operate?
Ego has gotten a bad rap. Some disciplines suggest that we should suppress the ego or even kill it. But ego plays a very important part when we are in a physical body on this planet. It is ego's job to protect us.
Whenever we enter a situation, the ego scans the system for cell memories that are similar to the current one. If it any similar situations that resulted in our being hurt, it try to protect us from being hurt again.
Cellular memories are stored in the DNA, which we receive from our ancestors. Cellular memory is created whenever we experience trauma or make an emotional decision. And if you believe in such things, cell memory comes in from other lifetimes, other aspects of ourselves in other dimensions. With all that history, when the ego does a scan, it can almost always find a similar situation where we have been hurt. So it puts up the defenses to prevent us from getting hurt again.
It may throw up feelings of fear and doubt. It may initiate thoughts, beliefs or memories that distract us from participating in the situation. Sometimes it will create roadblocks that will prohibit us from participating, such as limitations of time, financial setbacks and illness. It will do anything to get in the way.
And these defenses keep us limited to reacting the same way we always did. And guess what? If we react the same way, we will get the same results. No new experiences can come from this. We can't change from this. We are married to the sameness.
How Does the Soul Use the Law of Attraction?
The reason we encounter hurtful situations is because of the hurtful energy that is stored inside our DNA. The soul it is always seeking to bring us back to health and joy. So it is trying to release the hidden and suppressed energy. It uses the law of attraction (like attracts like) to magnetizes the people and situations to us that will trigger the opportunity for release.
That's why the wounded Warrior female attracts wounded men to her. For the opportunity to clear and release this stored energy. The Warrior can clear the hurtful energy in the DNA. And when she does, she begins moving through her life without the hurtful cellular memory. The ego's job is so much easier because there is no hurtful energy to be released - she is not drawing hurtful situations anymore. And when she moves into a new situation and ego scans for hurtful memories, it can't find any. So the ego then allows her to move into new experiences with no limitations.
In my own case, when I looked inside, I saw that my inner female was in a heap in the back of a dark cave. She was dirty and frightened and was only about six years old. My inner male was a giant Warrior King - strong and always on the defensive. It was in this image that I came to understand how I had become a Warrior - a Warrior King in the body of a female. The inner female totally incapacitated - nonfunctional.
I know my Warrior King was very tired. He had carried the burden by himself for lifetimes. He was tired of using only his mind and physical strength to master the world. He longed for his queen to contribute her feminine gifts in equal partnership. His most recent objective was to create a safe environment for her to come out of the cave, grow up and see that the world was once again a safe place for her to express her femininity.
My Warrior King committed himself to a quest. The quest was to rid himself and his child queen of the past feelings, attitudes, beliefs and cellular memories that kept them stuck in limited thought and behavior patterns.
So my Warrior King led me to techniques that helped me clear, clear, clear all the stuck and suppressed energy. And then as a validation, I met a man who mirrored to me -- my new self. We had a short, but very enjoyable relationship. He was balanced in his male and female aspects. In our relationship he expressed the male aspect - initiating our time together, making the plans, providing a safe environment for us to explore each other.
For the first time in my life, I surrendered and allowed a man to take the lead. He told me what he wanted and what he thought about things. I told him how I felt about what he said and wanted. And he respected my feelings. He made the necessary corrections to allow me to continue to feel safe and cherished.
As I reflected upon our relationship, I noticed the difference between this and all my past relationships. I acknowledged to myself how much I enjoyed expressing feminine energy in this relationship. And as I did this, I saw my inner female stand up and take notice. She came out of the fetal position in the back of the cave and stood in the sunlight. She basked in the energy of my appreciation of my femininity.
And as she absorbed this appreciation, she began to transform. She started growing up from a girl of six, through adolescence, through puberty, into a mature woman. And as she transformed, my inner male stood by and watched in fascination and growing excitement. Yes, yes, this is what he had been waiting for.
She grew into a beautiful woman and stood to face the Warrior King. They gazed into each other's eyes. She thanked him for all of his patience, kindness, and for running the show for such a long time without her. She thanked him for his protection and for creating a safe environment. They embraced and they walked off into the sunset, presumably for to enjoy their honeymoon.
Since that time, my creativity and intuition have increased tremendously. I have been given the gift of healing to share with others. My inner male and female now work together in Sacred Union as equal partners. I see them sitting on matching golden thrones side-by-side, ruling the kingdom with power, wisdom and compassion.