My dearest Flowers.... thankyou for your love and kind words only those who have experienced this sort of pressure towards life can truly relate to what another is going through!
I have been told I am a very strong person... It breaks my heart the truth be known!
I being on the spiritual path and understanding it and knowing the spiritual law...
As a human and MOTHER the physcial is truly a heart wrenching experience to watch the most beautiful being I have ever known self destruct.
Naomi thinking she is ulgy then making her vehicle so undriveable... this time the cuts deeper.... removing all medications " isn't" going to stop her!
If that is her ultimate goal she will succeed......
I have to be "realistic" I may not always be there to rush her to the hospital....
I may not be able to SAVE her...the next.
When I was a child
my mother told me that children are only on loan....
It got me thinking today as my mind reflected back to those words...
That we choose our parents and we choose our experiences for this life's journey!
Oh hell I just want to "scream"....
My child is a book that has been borrowed from the library.... at first the task of reading her was a joy .... and at some point the story got complicated...
I became so attatched to the book...
The book became closed for 5 years plus gathering dust... Then recently the book alllowed me to continue the story...
Yet I feel the pang!
I never skipped the pages so I that could get to the end of a chapter.
I love this book and do not wish to return her to the library.
I truly don't know what the books ending will be .
I just have to take the pages each day as the come.
I know eventually that I will have to surrender her and perhaps have her repaired and then have her out on loan again.
I just want to hold her, caress her.. enjoy the moment without
having this emotion called grief... to be in a state of happiness
without all the garbage happening. I know I can still be in a state of being happy with all that is happening.... It truly takes alot of effort and energy.
The chapter hasn't ended it is to be continue.....
love always amazonmum.
MY SPECIAL FLOWER
YOUR ARE MY SPECIAL FLOWER
YOUR ARE MY BEAUTIFUL BLOOM
WHO UNFURLS DURING THE LUNAR MOON
YOUR BEAUTY SHINES
WITH SOFTNESS
TENDER RADIANT CARE
YOUR IMAGE REFLECTS
ON THE OUTSIDE
THE “COR�?/P>
BEING CARESSED
TIGHTLY CLOSED
AND THE LOVING SCENT
OF YOUR BEING
TOUCHES SO MANY HEARTS
WE ALL SEE YOUR BEAUTY
THE ESSENCE
HIDING FROM THE WORLD
JUST WAITNG FOR THE MOMENT
TO SEE YOU UNFURL
IN FULL BLOOM
YOU CAN SEE
THE UNIVERSE RESIDES WITHIN THEE
THE SEEDS SCATTERED
SOME HARVESTED AND RESTORED
WITH EACH SEASON
AND OBSTACLE THAT LOOMS
YOU STILL EMANATE DELICATE PERFUME.
YOU ARE AN ANGLE FLOWER SENT FROM ABOVE
AND ALL WHOM YOU HAVE TOUCHED
JUST WANT TO PICK YOU
AND KEEP YOU IN THERE CARE
TO REMEMBER AND HOLD
SUCH A BEAUTIFUL FLOWER
WHO IS LOST IN DISPAIR.
YOU ARE A JOY
A REFLECTION OF THE SUN
REMEMBER PRECIOUS FLOWER
YOU ARE GREATLY LOVED
BY ME AND OTHERS AND ESPECIALLY GOD.
Love always Mummy
25th March 2007
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