Monday, Dec 10

woke up at 7:15, ACK! kids got off to school in time tho.

set up my pills for the week, checked on some prescriptions that need filling and got on the computer about 8am

 

did some e-mail and IMed Lady M to talk about some solutions to some problems we' been having with nonproductivity.

We decided to make some changes, this being one of them and to treat our M-F days as if we had paying jobs with limited time fiddling around on line so we could accomplish somethings in our mundane worlds.

We plan on introducing some regular times for waking up and eating and going to bed too.

We spent about 3 hours hashing it out.

Wow I am doing so good at this aren't I ? NOT!

 

I have been better about breaking old routines tho and not vegging all day mentally, I have been up and around more and I have done more house work than I have in a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time.

 

I still need to work my way into a new routine and "find" my niche.

 

I never have been doing things because I'm "supposed" to which is probably why I never did well working for other people.But now I am working for myself and building WicHaven into a covenstead is important enough to me to get me to do something more than what I have before.

 

I do miss Bobbi, she's is such a light and inspiration.

 

Well the date is June 11th 2008

 

six months since I've been here.

 

that sucks

 

well... I have been in the chambers, but I haven't been in HERE.

so much for daily self discipline.

 

I've never been good at that, how ever I have managed to keep the weight I lost off for a long while so I must be doing something halfway right.

 

mostly what I have been doing is trying to stay on track with daily routines of taking pills, seeing doctors, watching everything that goes in my mouth to keep from my blood sugar going to high or falling too low, trying to break old habits and trying to adopt more constructive activities into my life.

 

Bobbi has been my greatest help in this. I am so lazy if left to my own devices i probably wouldn't ever so anything, but she keeps coming up with inspiring things to do, and I feel good when I do them.

 

I hate to see her so down on herself. she really is a wonderful person.

 

today I managed to clean the kitchen (which was a disaster) all by myself... it took 5 hours, but I did it.

 

Stewart is still away from home and looking at myself and this house, I can't blame him. If I was him I'd stay away too.

 

I had the people from Home Depot out today to measure the doorway for the hall. and I am really looking forward to it being put up. That way the Dogs can finally come back inside the house now that it's so hot and they won't be able to get in the clinic to make their messes.

 

 I have enough things to do in the clinic to keep me busy for weeks. I just hope I can get them done before Bobbi comes to visit this fall.

 

I have plenty of other things that will tickle her fancy when she comes without being dissappointed in me for not doing other things

 

Goddess grant me the strength and initiative to get them done!!!!