Thank you ladies for your kind thoughts and messages.  I really appreciate it.  Especially as yesterday was Ashley's EDD.  I was able to do something special for her which was very emotional and yet beautiful.

 

I am so grateful that I have 2 beautiful little boys and 2 lovely step-sons.  I just wish that I had my little girl here on this earth too. 

 

My eldest son Ronan (3.5yrs) is very precious.  He points to Ashley's ashes and says her name.  He kisses the heart pendant I wear (with Ashley's name and DOB) engraved on it.  He likes to look at her keepsake box.  He is very precious to me... I am able to share her with him and in time my youngest Callum (2 in two weeks) as well.  They know that she is their sister... just a shame that I cant put her name on any future birth certificates as she was just over 18weeks gestation.

 

Once again thank you.  I hope this site will help me on those rough days and hopefully I too can help others in their time of need.