Dear Andrea...I can certainly understand your frustrations.  But, don't doubt for a second that God is taking care of Jacob and that he is well, and whole, and that he is happy.  I know that it is easy to loose faith..but, we must never let go of our faith.  Without my faith, I never could have made it through loosing my son.  Please know that I am here for you, but, more importantly.....God is there also.  And, he is watching over your Jacob, just as he is my Bobby.
 I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.  I hope that you find the peace that you are seeking.  May God hold you real tight.
 Love and hugs....Rean