Dear Andrea...I can certainly understand your frustrations. But, don't doubt for a second that God is taking care of Jacob and that he is well, and whole, and that he is happy. I know that it is easy to loose faith..but, we must never let go of our faith. Without my faith, I never could have made it through loosing my son. Please know that I am here for you, but, more importantly.....God is there also. And, he is watching over your Jacob, just as he is my Bobby.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that you find the peace that you are seeking. May God hold you real tight.
Love and hugs....Rean