I know exactly what you mean Rean. One of my friends had lost a baby before I did and I remember telling my husband that in a sense she was lucky because she lost her child as an infant rather than after he became a teen or a man. In my mind she had not learned to love him yet because she had not had him long enough. I was only able to say that because I didn't understand what she was going through. Well I can assure you all that changed when I lost my own infant son at birth. I had never before felt the pain of losing a baby, and I realized that I had started loving that baby the minute I knew I was pregnant, and that love grew as he grew. By the time he was born I loved him with all my heart and that love has never changed. Now I know that it doesn't matter what age they are, what they look like, what sex they are, or how they taken, they are our children and we love them unconditionally from the day they are born until the day you die. Hugs...Shannon |