Gypsy, Im so sorry your in such a deep place. Did you go back on Methadone?
Have you tried suboxone?
Life was overwhelming for my son but i dont believe it had to end in suicide like it did.... Ive made peace with his death but i believe with the right support, or right medication, he might be here now telling you to fight this with everything you got.
I do it for him cause he cant...
Sweetie, have you ever read the book from Pycho to Psychologist?? Written by Dr. Danato Cimini??
I got ahold of his book by a fluke which i dont believe was any concidence and you MUST read it.
If you dont have the money to buy it i can mail it to you if you give me your address, [email protected] I would be THRILLED to pass it along..
Gypsy, I promise you, wounds heal..
People who love you will forgive and forget.
You can forgive yourself and learn to love yourself again.
As long as you allow your past to dictate your future nothing is going to change..
Push thru that fear, you can do this...
Much Love Karen