I think that it goes in spurts. I feel sometimes like I am lost and that things aren't working out the way I wanted them or that I spend so much of my time stressing about things that I'm not able to sit back and enjoy life and my family. Other times I feel like I am at peace and am able to sit back and marvel at the things my kids do or just enjoy a snuggle on the swing outside with Don while I watch my kids run around having fun. I am trying to make more time for myself because I feel like when I'm lost it is more losing a part of me and who I am so definitely something I'm working harder on.