hey rat lover,

 

i told this to frank earlier but i don't know how you've been able handle this for so long and i truly admire your strength! i've found that when people asked me that they never really wanted to know, at least not the ones that aren't around me all the time. i just found out 2 weeks ago that my neighbor's wife never knew just how bad or how often i am in pain and i've lived next door to them for 2 years now. all the times she has seen me she never knew i was in so much pain, or she just nevered cared all she is worried about is how life affects her, as with all of us in a way i believe. i hope that you find some true friends at college, people that care and i know they are out there.

 

you know there is one thing i've found that actually helps with the pain that doesn't involve drugs, when i can afford it i see this lady here in Denver that does massage work. she basically works with the energy centers on the body and i actually come away from a session with her without any pain for 5 - 7 hours...seems small  i know but it is truly remarkable!! to feel normal for just those few hours...... God how i miss it! if anyone wants her information let me know, she is a little expensive and she doesn't take insurance but it is well worth it in my eyes.

 

anyway i hope it becomes easier for you in school!!

Shawn