Thank you everyone who responded to my emotional crisis. I am doing slightly better. Part of me is heartbroken because I finally got brave enough to tell someone in authority, and they called health and wellfare to see what could be done to help me, and unfortunately without physical proof of the abuse, there is nothing they can do. So I was dejected and wanted to give up, but then I talked to my friend, and she helped me to see how strong I am. So I'm not giving up. Tomorrow we are going to plot and see what we can do as far as proof. I've been contacting a bunch of people at the college I'll be attending, and I hope that someone will respond soon, as far as trying to find housing and possible accomodations for my RSD. I'm scared to hurt my dad, and I'm scared to hurt my family, but I need to protect myself first, and even if it's just from the emotional abuse, I can't be happy here. On another note I've been getting horrifying chest pains, they cause me to literally just lie on the bed unable to move for however long the pain lasts, pale as can be, struggling to breath, burning up, my arms go numb. It is nooo fun. So on thursday, July 31st I go in to get an upper endoscopy and a few biopsys done. I'm not looking forward to it. Wow....and this summer has gone by soo fast. On august sixth I will be turning 18. Then on August 26th I start college. Wow....scary thougts. I'm taking my drivers permit test on wednesday so I can start taking lessons, so hopefully I have enough control of my legs that that wont be a problem for me. So there are a lot of changes happening, and as soon as I find out what's going on with my chest I'll let you know.