Well, in my July check in I announced my baby was born. He is healthy and a great baby. But, I need some encouragement or advice from any of the moms. My pain has been worse the last week or so. Last week after a night of horrible pain, I went to move the baby from the crib to the changing table (all of two feet distance). My arm spasmed or gave out (which ever you want to call it) and I ALMOST dropped my baby. It was like a football fumble/recover. Afterward all I could do was sit on my bed with him with poop and pee all over both of us and cry and cry. I am aware that I need to be very careful and feel that I do everything to keep him safe and who gives a damn about my pain. I feel like a horrible mother and am scared cause he is only going to get bigger and move even more. How do I do it? Any words of wisdom would be awfully nice. PLEASE, only respond with encouragement and not judgement or ridicule I feel bad enough as it is.

Thanks, -Jama