Hi all,,,,, Looking at this past year,,,, Hard really hard for me too NOT BE discouraged.  Sorry that I been hard one too get hold of,,, past month have had real problems with this  MSN n LiveID thing... Have not been able too access. And not feeling well is of no help in solving issues. I have now had a staff infection for 3 months. is getting better ,,, in it time ,,, not mine,,,!!!!!!!! Now understanding drs. concerns more.. Is not fun!!!! And another kind of pain issue that noone needs.  This past year,,, is been a hell that noone deserves to go into also. Am living it n working on getting out of it all also.   Future is kinda of uncertain as to where I go from here n how n what or why.  But something is got too give n go up from here. ASAP!!!!!! Noone can imagine how drained  physically or mentally ,,, or emotionally that I am going thru  here.  Just empty n gone.  Huggzzz,,, Sorry that I am venting... darn it I really really do try!!!!!!