Hey Ms Rebecca. I just wanted to let cha know that i totally understand and feel what u have been thru...i have been thru a very simlar experance....i haven't been here laong either as a mamber...i been real ill....but i too was told i was a drug additic and laughed at behind my back...i could hear the nurses while the Dr. would order me a dermol pain shot.......the shots starting off a couple of times a month n finally a daily shot...i finaly got in to a pain care DR amd had a bone scan n nerve bloack which diongnes me right then...but by that time i had lost an arn n wrist n fingers that are twisted up...then i spent 2 years in bed ..un able to move due to the pain level...by the time i actualy did get dignosed i had lost so much..n the Dr who trested this diease told me i was one of the worse pt that had even walked thru his doors..' it had been over 9 yrs...then 1996 is when i was finally as i mentioned dgnosed correctly...see i got sent to a nerologist cuz i had black outs...they were due to pain...n when he seen my hand he was floored by the look og it...he is the one who told me to please have my primary Dr look into it.ASAP...' he did n i went to the pain care and had as i said a bone scan n a nerve block...the 1st of 12...and they didnt do anything at all...n each time i had 1 i was rushed upstairs to a instay hostpial visit and put on a morphine drip for at least a week...they tried in hosptial aggresstive PT...that was a complelt joke..i im a stage 4 and i had a infusion morphine/clonidene pump implanted...plus i take7 other kinds of mes on top of that....i fought the meds....i fought the fact of a diesase i didnt want...but...all i did was hurt myself in the process...the RSD is now full body...i am now in a wheel chair...' i am 47...with 7 grown younguns except 3 teens at home and 9 gran youngins...' i do all i can for myself...i guess when yr born with a will to fight...it usually is there even when ya feel so down like it left...it will always in my case reservce...' God is my soul strength..'i would love to get to know ya...and i am veyr happy to meet ya...as far as SSDI....i just got my award letter yesterday...i applies in june...so yes ma'am you certainly can get it...hope to get to know ya ...God Bless ya sugar...soft hugs southernrain....(ms susie)