The past year was a rough one for me , when my husband lost his job of 35 years .. well.. all of my hopes and dreams came crashing down .. reality of our situation sank in and the future looked bleak . Those were dark days for me , I always been such a optimist and I just couldn't find anything to be optimistic about . Somewhere in the back of my mind I kept telling myself "things will get better" , even though a part of me had it's doubts lol. Slowly all of those encouraging words I was so great for dishing out .. started to help me .With the new year came the realization of how much better my life is now than it was a year ago .. suddenly .. when I looked to the future it wasn't with "dread" . So ... the optimistic "pennpal" is creeping back in .. slowly .. caustiously and realistically, I'm finally figuring out at my age that life is "not a bed of roses " but with that I'm realizing that "life is what you make of it " .. so it kind of balances the two out lol. The one thing I have started to do is not listen to the news as much .. believe me ... read the paper and watch the news and you'll be depressed the rest of the day! lol. I know we can't enclose ourselves in "hard shells" oblivious to the outside world all together but .. we can balance the bad news with some good news .. don't you think? In my attempt to do this .. I read the newspaper .. from the front to the back looking for "uplifting" news and .. I didn't have much luck lmao. So ... I went back and did find some "good " that came out of tragedies .. that's close .. right? Everyday now .. I "scan" news from the paper or more importantly from people , in actions or words .. and yes .. I smile , because I always find many acts of kindness that goes un-noticed ... something I was missing before , and that's a whole lot better than watching the news on telelvision or reading the newspaper . Maybe what I'm trying to say is .. "Don't expect to find the Good in other peoples preception of what they consider "important " , find the good in what you consider important and instead of walking out the door depressed every morning , you just might have a smile on your face . "Pennpals News" lol.