Feather and the Balance Act (from the "Balance and the 4 Inch Beam" Series) Everyone wants Balance in their Lives - as soon as they find out what it really means. Trouble is -- this usually takes some time - and some Pain, and it takes some failures in the path of spirit growth to force the realization that --- if ya don't have balance - it don't matter what Else ya got in the way of Gifts; sooner or later ya fall over from the Pain - or the Pleasure - but ya fall over. Then you lapse into a Depression of apathy or anger or whatever emotion is most special to you, based on your childhood or unresolved issues. You can survive this - the hard way, or the smart way - as is your ken in life. But this Depression or blasé period will stay with you for a long time, until you learn how to Balance - or you decide to change your Intent to a lower level of expectation. Backing away from failure, by itself, is not the problem; it is how you handle the blasé that results - that becomes the problem -- and by then you have forgotten the cause in search of the symptoms. Do ya need Balance? You bet yur Ass you do. We All Do. It is a bet ya can take to the Bank. If ya don't have a Clew about Balance - ya ain't got much more than Parlor tricks up yur sleeve; and that and a quarter can't buy a Cup of Espresso at the GDO Café J
From: Tall Feather To: [email protected] Date: Wed, 04 Oct 2000 Hello, Hope you are having a good day. I wanted to drop a line to you. I have a question Or two. First it seems the deeper I go to settle and heal the parts of me I still need to heal the more I am confronted once again with things I have worked threw. My nick is Tall Feather for a reason. I believe we spiral in our lessons. As we grow we are once again confronted with past lessons and we have new tools each time. So I know that my belief in this also creates it; but it works for me...I am also stumped and a little lost with the intensity I have been releasing the things. The day I started to release was just a few days after I had this dream. The thing that set off the dream was a reaction to something my husband did that was very like my father, I had felt it coming I may have even created it in some ways. I was not even angry at first. It happened the night before. The next morning I woke to being devastated. It vibrated threw me it waved from my tail bone up threw my body taking all of me with it...the surprising thing was I didn't smother it; I had no desire too, I felt no need to, no need for control. But the shocking thing was as I sat at the table taking my medication the thought came in my mind how easy it would be and I was hit with a deeper wave of devastation. I knew even then that I had taped my childhood again or I should say "teenhood". I have felt split lately, like I am both in this body and viewing it too. The release continued almost 24 hours, and even now I feel differently. The connection I am making is the anger and lack of self worth I had at 16 when I tried to commit suicide; since then I have never even came close to the feeling of devastation I had then or worked threw then. My main worry is if I am tapping that area of me again to heal not only in preparation for my mother and I but for myself and my family, how can I do this? You said last night and I understand but in all frankness part of my childhood is shadow and very dark and deeper then I remember ...can I do this am I strong enough...? More then anything I am walking my path here, doing things as presented, and taking my time. Now I am moving fast forward, barely getting a knot tied to the end of my rope here. How can I do this in a way that I am more detached? I feel the detachment now but seem to have little affect on it. It affects me. This is turning into a novel and I am not sure my point is in here. The combine woman speaks often of being able to astral to the past and seeing g and reclaiming it. Can this be done and should I do it alone?. I am of Irish decent; I was called a witch long before I knew what the craft was. I do not practice Wicca but have many friends that do. I know my family will hide any knowledge of the craft, being the Catholics they are, but I will ask anyway; a silly question I know - but am I? I romanticize life. Not just witch stuff; I am not likely to practice the craft or Wicca. I am still cleaning out my dogma closet as far as natural magic. I see breath as the greatest magic of all and from it comes everything. I cant define it but I do know it, and I am quite certain I use some form of magic all the time, be it what ever it is. Thank you Kellogg, Tall Feather J J J J J J J
Kellog's reply: Ya said a lot, Feather. Can you astral to the past? Sure. Should you do it alone? When you do this, you are rarely "alone ". There is usually a guide with you, even if you don't see him/her/it. In your case, you definitely have a guide handy. Don't sweat that part. Question is: Do you prefer to astral to the past? These things take time to sort out. I need to point out two things to you:
Balance. You always need to maintain "balance" in your quest. Some people stick to the sloth of the Wurld, and don't make progress. Other people try to bite off too much too soon - and "crash and burn" because of it. You're touching in that area right now. You need to maintain balance in every aspect of your life, especially the mundane things. Suicide is an easy thing to contemplate - especially when you've astral traveled. Folks tend to think that doing suicide will just get them Passed over there quicker. It doesn't work like that. Very few folks have the spiritual balance to take their own life, when they choose, without a serious consequence. When a spirit does suicide before its time, there is a barrier created on the Other Side. It is a terrible barrier - because none can take it down but you. The imbalance that caused you to suicide now becomes a real barrier to keep you from using your spiritual gifts. You are literally "kept" away from others...like a leper. The act triggers a depression that you have to deal with -- first --- above Everything else. It's no fun. You don't want to do it. Your heroic quest. Don't forget that you came into this earth for a reason. Don't let all the fast-pace and lightheadedness that's going now right now turn you into a victim, a "Feel sorry for myself cuz of all the pain" victim. Pain is a wonderful teacher. All events that allow true spiritual learning, usually involve pain at some point; your pain, or someone else's. The pain you feel now - you need to address, and accept. It is a natural progression of your spirit, that you chose this path, and have to work through these things. Accept it. Release it. Be detached, to as much in this Wurld as you possibly can. I know this is difficult. Releasing, and detaching is difficult. But then, everything in life is difficult, at first. I know things are changing. Don't rush into changes. Address your emotional state, get the balance, get the calm. Yeowza.
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