ok - think about your situation at home and how you have had enough of it all and want better for you and your young family.  Think about the practicalities of what you need to do to find that peace and how galling or hard it might seem, and also think about the reaction of the people you know around you would be, would they all point the finger at you and blame you for making waves or trying to change things even though they don't have the full picture.

 

I think that the message, whilst sinister in the dream, is more about trusting your own judgement and not being drawn away form being the person that you are - you didn't die you hair, you knew that you are you no matter what (destincitve face and all) - so there is no point in hiding it.  The hanging could be the end of a sitaution, a sign of a time of transition for you and your children, that is not to say you will leave your hubby, just to say that your subconsicous believes you will find a way through the woods that is a true reflection of who you are and what is right for you and your babies, and not what everyone else would have you do to keep the peace.  Its a message of encouragement - go figure

 

Hope it helps

 

Love Erika xxxxxxxxxxxx

 

its hard to try and decipher things when they appear dark isn't it, but normally, the dreams are sinister to make you remember them so you can get the message.

 

Senidng loads of love for you babes

 

Erika xxxxxxxxxxxxx

I remember having a very morbid dream once and I was told that the message was directly from my guide.  I asked why my guide (who should be loving) would allow me to dream such nonesense and I was told that it was to get my attention!  And hoo boy!  Did he!  I just coul't stop thinking aabout htat scarey dream! 

I feel that the reason your dream took on such a profound dark side was to assure that you wouldn't forget it and you would question it.  Got your attention and it's having you ask LOTS of questions, right?  Maybe post it and get feed-back on it??  Maybe have it force you to address things in your life???....maybe force you to do other things with it????...I think that whatever the message you believe this dream is giving you, it was given in such a horrible way so as to tell you that you must address whatever issue this dream represents.

 

I kind of saw the following....

The murderring of the two people but not seeing yourself doing it (only noticing the blood on your hands) I believe is symbolic of you feeling reponsible for some wrongdoing that you didn't directly do, but that you are uncertain if you are to blame.  I also feel that the people you feel responsible for are you and your child.  You are responsible for both of you and the "murder" is kind of something you perceive as a failure and your fault.  But not seeing yourself doing it is like you know you are not responsible for whatever it is but are questioning yourself.  LIke you were put in that position but not on your own accord.  That the situation is making you feel like a different person (you say you were a mean nurse....and you are not mean!).  The nursing position could symbolise being in a position of nuture (such as you being a mother) and having a responsibility that you did not fill (instead of protecting and helping someone, you killed them).  People talking about you could be representative of someone who is making you feel shameful or bad about yourself.  Someone also placing the blame on you and making you feel shameful about it.  Not making any changes to yourself could be reprsentative to self acceptance, but given that you decided not to proceed with it and kill yourselves, is a sense of despair and feeling like you have no where to go.  That there are no solutions presenting themselves to you.  Kind of feeling like you are in "check mate" ina chess game and all your corners are covered. 

 

Martine