Hi, I've been wanting to post all week but MSN has been a pain in the butt AND... I wanted to try and wrap my brain around it myself before posting. It starts out with one of the ladies I work with telling us that her ex-daughter in law (Stacey* not her real name) passed away on the weekend. It was a sudden death and most likely a massive heart attack. But before I go on, I have to tell you a little history of Stacey and Tony* not his real name (the son of the lady I work with). While Stacey and Tony were married, they had twins - a boy and a girl.... the boy (18 yrs old now) was autistic and was very hard to handle... or so the Stacey thought. Tony didn't seem to have as much trouble with the boy when he had him for visits. Just this passed spring, Stacey decided that it was best to put the boy in a group home for autistic adults. She and Tony fought back and forth about it but in the end, the home was the best place for the son and she and Tony made their peace. So, just a couple of months ago, the son went to live there and settled in very well. The careworkers are very good to him and are making progress with him.
Anyway, Stacey had a massive heart attack and died on the weekend. Monday night, while I was just drifting off to sleep, I felt the bed move and I opened my eyes to see a figure above my head. I called out, "hey, what are you doing??". Jack woke up and asked me what was wrong. I told him I thought I saw him (because I didn't know who else it could have been) above the bed. He just told me to go back to sleep. I laid there a long time trying to figure out what had just happened. I drifted off to sleep again and then I saw the same figure in my dreams.... then it got closer and I could see that it was Stacey. She kept shrugging her shoulders like she was trying to tell me that she didn't understand what was going on. In my dream I told her that she was dead but she would just disappear, like she didn't want to accept what I was telling her. This happened two or three times during my sleep that night. So, last night, I asked her to come to me again. She did and she stayed a little longer for me to tell her what had gone on. She listened but still wasn't completely convinced. But today on my way home from work, she was with me in the car. I could feel her presence. She told me that she has accepted what has happened but she's not quite ready to cross over yet.... but she will once the funeral is over. She wants to be there to see how things go and to celebrate her life with everyone. I told her that was very nice. She also told me that it was her that put that thought in my head about her son and how peaceful it is to know he will be taken care of at the group home. She's pleased that he is happy and that she and Tony got to make that decision together and had made peace with each other. She said it was funny how all those things just fell into place at the right time. I told her that it was all in God's plans. He wouldn't have wanted her to leave things at loose ends. She thanked me for being there for her as well.... and then she was gone. You know what??..... all that conversation happend in an instant.... it was like I just "knew" it all. I can't believe this all happened to me..... that I was actually able to help someone. I don't think it will become a regular thing, I think it was just that I was open at the right time for her and she took the opportunity. I'm still not completely sure it wasn't all just in my head.... but I'm hoping it wasn't all in my head. It would be the strongest experience I've had next to the messages I gave Jade three years ago about her Nanny.
Anyway, I've rambled on long enough now. I really wanted to share this experience with you all. Thanks for letting me share.
Hugs,
Wheezie