Goodbye, Chance Tue Oct 28, 2008 3:37 pm[ Mood: heart-broken ] two days isnt much, maybe even two and a half days. but it was enough for you to firmly wedge a space in my heart, as well as Chloe's and Annie's hearts. we will miss you more then you may ever know, or maybe you do, now that you can watch over us all. you have an amazing spirit, and i hope your body is as strong as before. we love you, we miss you; Annie, Chloe, your brothers and sisters, and me. say thank you to Cheyenne, for sending us your way, and sending you our way.
i never got the story of Chance down; ironically for fear of jinxing him (im odd that way). its a short one, but he left a permanent influence on those he came into contact with. i was soo hoping hed be a special needs mouse, who id have to cater to for his whole natural lifetime, because to me having a special needs critter just means they defied the odds and made it. i know God has his reasons, and it was meant to be this way, but i actually broke down and cried for a tiny soul i barely knew two days. "just a mouse" perhaps to most, but what a mouse.
Goodbye, Grandma Wed Oct 29, 2008 9:35 pm[ Mood: numb ] maybe posting it will make it seem more real? my Grandma, my mom's stepmom, died Tuesday morning. funeral friday (funeral of convenience, for my uncle, but another story another time). my mom and dad visited with her the Sunday before last, and shes glad they did. i feel guilty i hadnt seen her for a while. i thought about going last time, but never said anything. she has one biological daughter who lives out of town and couldnt be bothered to visit her mom, which upset her. i doubt shed even bother to come to the funeral, but who knows.
still not real....still not real still here Wed Nov 05, 2008 2:39 pm edit to add a song -- this was one played at my grandmas funeral:
("Sunshine on my Shoulder by John Denver" -- sorry, cant get it to play here, these are copied and pasted from my blog at another forum)
so much to say , so much to update on, but the very act of getting thoughts down is a bit much right now. to those who offered words of condolences, thank you so much. your thoughts and words do NOT go unnoticed.
ill be back, honest. even if its just to post pictures or video or music or something. |