weird dreaming night last night....seemed more like a nightmare.
but i believe theres a message here, and i cant quite figure it out.
in this dream i was in a house i've never been in.
my mom was there. my 19 yr old dead daughter was there, and my blue and gold macaw(BooBoo).
now my daughter's room was in the kitchen, and it looked liked a wildly painted circus wagon./bird cage thing.
there was a crib in it, and some perches , and things for the bird. the door swung out like a bird cage. my daughter's build was younger.
in the corner of this kitchen/living room was an overstuffed chair my mom sat in, and on the other side of the room was a wooden kitchen table.
the bird got out and flew above the stove and into some shelving .
the bird dropped like a rock, i pickd it up the bird handed it to my mom, and then went over to my daughter.
i screamed at my daughter that she was trying to kill my bird. that she let it out on purpose.
she was in her cage/wagon room thing and i grabbed her by the hair screaming at her. she swore it was an accident as she kicked back at me.
my mom was by the table at this time and yelled for me to come over, then handed me te bird.
the bird was dying and sweating profusely. he was dripping wet as i held it. i let the bird know i loved him very much, and then he died in my arms.
my mom took the bird away, and i proceeded to scream at her about her never letting me have anything to love. how she always manages to take what little joy i have away.
she thenplops down on the chair and screams something about starting to smoke again, and is thaat what i want? for her to start smoking again? my mom has never smoked a ciggy in her life.
the dream ended, and i woke up very upset.
now i know theres a meaning to this, and i'm trying to figure it out.
i wrote this here so i could take a better look, and to get feedback.
i wont get into details about my past with my daughter, or my mom.
not now anyway....
if anyone senses anything about this dream, i'd appreciate it.
gsees