Boy you sound like me in a lot of ways. By the way, I am on Van Island right now. I don't live here but I used to. This rain is driving me bonkers. I live in California and that's a long story but I sense I won't be there much longer, we have a place by sumas that I believe we'll end up at in the next 6 mos.

Now, back to you. Please watch the skin thing and the throat, I had very high stress jobs and situations for the past 7 yrs and my body has finally said enuf and I have severe hives that close my throat off and make it hard to swallow when I'm under stress. I start out being just itchy for a few months, some chest discomfort then here come the hives. I somehow sense you're not far from that place and if I can help you avoid that I'd love to because it's "hell". I just got fired from a very good job because I was off sick and a coworker stabbed me in the back big time and they fired me while I was on sick leave (ya I know that's not legal - I'll deal with that later) Anyway it's a blessing in disguise because I'm now totally focusing on ME for awhile - accupuncture, traditional medicine, journalling and really healing and I'm not dwelling on the jerks that stabbed me in the back. There comes a time when the body says STOP and I think you are close to that point. Mini vacation be darned is there a way you can do 3 mos sick leave or disability - talk to your Dr, you've been through so much - the trouble swallowing also is sometimes unreleased grief or anger that you're stuffing down and not letting come out - let it out and you'll swallow better.

Best wishes to you!!

Kari

Thank you Kari

  I saw you in anothers post,  was drawn to your advice and name ((( Kari )))

Clicked on your info and found you in mine.  Yes!  I know,  the stress is there and i need to deal with it.  I will.  I love my job and the ppl I work with.. but it also is a stress factory lol.  Yes you are also right about it being unreleased grief... you are good I have been feeling lost

 

I read this.. loved it!