Oh my gosh. I can imagine that was a hard story to tell. My heart goes out to you and your family. I know what you mean by not being able to take the memories away from your daughter. In our car accident Ayden saw Brandon laying in the ditch. The next morning he woke up and looked lost and said "Mommy you broke Brandon". We had company already and I just wanted to cry my eyes out. I felt so awful. I still do. The guilt. Doesn't matter that the police and everyone said that it was freak and not my fault. I still feel guilty as I imagine so do you. On one hand I can't imagine having to look him in the eye and hold his hand while he left. But on the other hand I wish I was given that. It is never easy. I hope your daughter is coping ok. I know Ayden talks about it a lot very matter of factly. I have tried to take advantage of his younger age and tried to tell him an angel swooped in and took Brandon before he was hurt. He says that now. I don't know if that is right but I would rather him hold on to that idea than the truth. For so long he kept asking when we were going to pick him up from the doctor's. He still has low moments when he wants someone to play with. It breaks my heart.
Benny sounds so cute! Like he always had the cutest thing to say. You would have to give him an extra pancake when he is that cute. Please don't hold on to the guilt of not giving him his airplane ride. We can't do these things all the time. Mommy's do wear out. If you were to know the consequences of course you would have done it. We don't know the future. I keep saying if I had of stayed home he would still be here. I even had a premonition of the accident. So that makes me really feel bad cause I should have listened better. I do hold a firm belief though that we don't go till it is our time. God will take us whatever way necessary. It is hard for us with the broken family after though. How old was your daughter? I am sorry. You don't need to read my rambling. Your story just made me cry. I know the horror you felt.
He sounds like a beautiful angel. And I know he wants his mommy to be happy in this life. The day will come that you will be able to spend eternity with both your angels. (((HUGS)))
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