There have been many who say they had an understanding at a very young age they were chosen by God and set apart for His purposes. This could be why the enemy of our souls tries to kill so many before birth who would make a difference for eternity in this world. Gifts and abilities given to us in the womb are to be developed and used not for profit or worldly fame; but to cherish and only used by God as He directs.

When I was only one month old Satan tried to kill me when my Mom was lighting the wood stove to give me a bath. She set my basket on the table and lit a match to start the stove. The match broke and she lit another. She heard a scream and turned to find my basket up in flames. She plucked me out and the match head scarred my chest.

I also almost died rolling up in a blanket at four months old and falling behind the bed. At five years old I fell out of a car on the highway and rolled down into the ditch. At eleven I had polio, and at fifteen my face was burnt real bad. I also had burns when at thirty five when I lit my furnace and went to check it and some fire came out and started the lace on my gown to burn. I had third degree burns on my hand that day.

When I was thirty-five I had a blood clot, and have had three surgeries on my legs since then. I had my third son who is now twenty-nine; and I lost a ten-year-old boy who was like my own, in front of our house when he got hit by a car. At the cemetery God spoke to me and said, “child, why do you weep, Paul is not here, he is with me.�?

Then He spoke to me again and again through every single aspect of life until I surrendered and was baptized over again and began to do evangelical singing for him, having opportunity to also preach a few times as well as pray for people.

I have been very physically hurt, had been raped twice in my life, once at age 14, and one of the times at knife point when I was dumped on the side of the road while I was visiting my sister in Detroit.

My kids and I had a house fire, lost everything, had the insurance replace what was gone, only to have it robbed from our moving truck when we were sleeping. I was burned three times in my life.

My hip smashed by an abusive husband, been in four spouse abuse centers in my life, and I have had three car accidents, , had polio, blood clot surgery, and was robbed of all belongings three times.

I have moved thirty four times in my life and four times in one year. No matter where I have laid my pillow I know sweet sleep; peace, and provision from my father in Heaven. He always provides enough so I can be generous at all times; not thinking of my own needs.

This is the first time in my life I have ever lived alone as my sons are in other states. God is showing me how to trust Him day by day to show me favor, grace, and mercy as I live in His peace and obedience.

Though I have never known a faithful love of a husband who is devoted to Jesus; and my home was never safe, and though my childhood was robbed from me, through all the abuse and rejection God has taught me the insults hurled at me fall upon Christ.

Though very few people have genuine appreciation of the depth of my compassion, mercy and love, few have taken up my cause in the past, and thought me a troubled soul, I am holding to His word in my heart, still waiting to have God fulfill the word in my spirit, He has a plan to do me good and not evil, a plan to give me a hope and a future.

I will remain God's little child for eternity Joy is the flag I wave in the face of despair, and I stand by faith, clothed in God's armor until I see Jesus.

If you have read this and do not know Jesus is the only way to the father, you must be born again to enter into the kingdom of Heaven when you die to this life here on earth.

If you say to me, being a Christian has only brought you grief and pain here on earth, why should I want to be a Christian? Consider what Jesus endured, and the cost of your eternal destiny. Obedience is better than sacrifice and we are to share with Jesus in His sufferings here on earth, as well as His eternal glory once we enter our continuing city where joy shall never end.

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