I am so very angry at life n all that is come around.  So much that I did not ask for. Enuff is more than enuff.  Since coming to Texas, I have dealt with one infection after another after another. Now is more than a yr n half. Still dealing with infections. Drs all told me that with the weight loss in such a short time they were afraid of infection n antibotics n ammune system. Well,,, Staff infection come up here n now into the fourth month of it ,, is spread. Am going too dr. this morning to see what is n how n what next. So sick of pills n drs. So sick. After the transportation problems.  Having too move n now roommate leaving in all of this mess, I sure am not knowing which way to go. Having another slumlord ,, yet again,,, after brother being worst of worst ,, so I had thot,,,,, well ******* now this really really suxxx!!!!! Been searching for answers. Having things go wrong each turn is really low blows.  To have it worse now,,, Now knowing if MS or RSD  or both are starting too flare. Is all more than enuff. I am really trying too keep chin up. I really am. Just had more than enuff of trying n being blown backwards at each turn.  I know that I am not that hard too deal with. I know that I go extra mile with n for anyone. Just that what is happened I have no understanding of why or how or whatfor!!!!!! What is more scarey. I have no idea what too expect from the dr this morning. Not at all.  Weight loss is going too be even scarier. To what is doing to my body. Still can afford too loose more. Ammune system is really low that I do know.  That is what is really scarey. Seeing this infection n all the flaring rite now is got me afraid of what  is next.  Geeeeee,,,,, life is got to get better here.  SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!                                   Sorry,,,, Just had too let this out. I do not mean too ramble. I am angry frustrated n hurt deeply. I honestly try hard. I do know also that my provider is got alot too learn. I told her gets mighty old too have too suffer at others expenses of not believing what is being told to them. Now to learn they have too leave for a few days also for funeral of grandfather.  At least she is taking me to dr.  Really suxx that so much can keep happening and all at once.  Huggzz n really hopes that noone is having such a time as this.