O my dear,,, my heart goes out too you. I am so sorry that U went thru this. A miscarriage is badd enuf. All the rest added on is a hell that non of us wants to go thru. I feel n wish that I could change it for u. I really do. Whatever u need to do too get out of the four walls ,,, Do it!!!! Get yourself into a church group of somekind.  Anything that will get u around people.  Pleeezz no that we are all been thru this. Isolation is worst that we can do to ourselves. Period. I am still trying too get out of mine totally. Being stuck is hard one. For me is worst cause of the physical limitations that I am enduring with all the dr treatments.  Is getting better for me. And soon I will break free.  I am keeping myself looking at the things that I do enjoy n or did enjoy n making meself do them ,,,regardless of how hard is.  We have too stay busy!!!!!!! ALLOW  yourself too grieve,,,, U have lost alot. No doubt of that. U have too allow yourself too feel those feelings. Allow for identifying all of those feelings n why u feel them.   Then go on. Like putting them on shelve. To rest n go on with all that u need too.   If you do not do this. Life will become a viscious cycle n will not know why.  That is even harder.  I done that,,, do not want too go back again at all.   Cause there is still MORE too be gained.  STILL more too be achieved by us. NO MATTER WHAT.   I hope that u get thru this ease enuff. Know that we are here. We fully understand.  And will answer as soon as we get messages.   I have more dr appts.  And still fighting thru more staff infections.  And more!!!!!!  Not fun for non of us.  Huggzzz glad that u could post your feelings. Feel free too post as we will answer.  Just times that we are going thru  we need a little time too answer. We do answer.  I been having alot of troubles with MSN and thier better ideas. Finally am working thru getting in more.  Will keep working!!!!!   Hugzzzzz  dear Annie