Tj,,,,,  So sorry that we have too live with this!!!!!!!! It really helps too know that we are not alone at all!!!!!!!  Do not be afraid too go into the other links here on site with the other groups!!!!!!!!  There are alot of us around... Make sure that you do go thru the grieving process.. Please behonest with you!!!!!  It really does help alot!!!!! We have too keep the stress out as much as is possible... We   all search for remission!!!!!! Please know that we are all searching..  We  understand!!!!! With drs who understand is other need that has to be filled!!!!!!!!!!   We are here!!!! Most all of us are msn messenger and or  yahoo messenger... Just look around.. If needed  holler we be happy too answer!!!!!!!!!!  With my time on hands,,, I am signed in alot most all the time. But  following drs. order rite now being off feet as much as is possible.. Since being new too  this all.. Do not be scared of looking into  natural therapys neither... We use all and anything that will help.. remember what works for one  may not work for someone else.. But  we use all that we find n keep searching!!!!!!!!!! Family support is important also...Hard hard one  when not understanding the kind of pain that we are going thru... Hard one!!!!!! So please know that we care n  are around or soon will be!!!!! Huggzz my dear!!!!!               Annie