{{{{{Char }}}},,, My dear char,,,,,   it is a really tuff one.. we all go thru our stages of grief ,,,, we cannot make it on our own tho.. We all needhelp with dealing with   pain an issues going on....  We all have too deal with  it all in our way.... There is no rite or wrong. Unless we completely refuse too deal or cope.. That is not any good. Sometimes we need counselors too help us with issues.. I was in counseling for four yrs.. Am needing to go in again.. Hard since moving to Texas too face all the issues..  I mean this move has put me in culture shock...   It is k too grief,,, we have lost life as it was meant to be.  Glad that you are back with the group tho... Anytime that  I can help do not be scared too give me a holler.. [email protected],,,, or [email protected],,, when I am online I am signed in on both... No worry,,,, be happy too chat. and help in any way  possible..  Huggzz my dear... Annie ,,, msn is having some issues.. so  no worry keep trying to get in...  stupid msn.  Have as good  time that is possible... Annie