Hey Frank,
  
   thanks for your kind words.  Your right I have had a hard go at life but, all in all.  I have two good kids a 13 year old boy with tourette's syndrome, OCD and tricitilamania ( who is starting to go thru puberty and is challanging everything) He's always right and I have no idea what I'm talking about and punishing him just isn't cutting it.  I know it's his tourette's and OCD but enough is enough sometimes, Poor kid takes as many pills as I do on a daily basis.
  
 then there's my 11 year old daughter and she's 11 need I say anymore.
  
 but, I'm not going it all alone I have a new hubby whose really great with them and me.  He really does put me on a pedastal.
  
 I feel bad that they only get the half of me I can't give them all of me... cause I hurt too much.  I only worry that one day they will hold that againist me.  They say no but, do they mean it?  That's why I want to try the SCS I'm hoping it will allow me to give them more of me.
  
 Talk with you soon,
 Michelle