Well what a week this has been!!!!!!!!

Went off to circle on Monday night first part we discussed the 7 principles and what they mean to us as individuals very interesting and thought provoking.

Second part was the meditation where we going to try and meet our Angel which I have done previously. I went into meditation and found myself walking towards a fountain that was huge with the spray coming out of it, knew there was somebody there but was unable to see who they were. Felt very emotional and sad all at the same time we both began to walk around the fountain and I felt as though I was being hugged and it felt wonderful. Then I had this ay to me it is ok to cry and let your feelings show let the past hurts slip away from you it will be ok. I felt as though the fountain water was me crying!! I Felt tears running down my face and I was unable to do anything about it. Phil the instructor saw and was fine about it. Chatted to me after and said it was fine that these things happen for a reason. BBoy did I feel embarrassed lol. He said that I had built a wall around myself to stop me being hurt again and I am afraid to let people in. THAT IS SO TRUE. !! After letting my guard down before and suffering for it I built it up and refuse to let him get through even though he is trying his HARDEST to make it happen.

Poor old Karen has got in right state with her financial problems, the company have conned her so now she is looking at court in the New Year. I will support her all I can.

Have a couple of days off work=k and it is lovely to chill at home got brothers pressie finally today after he decided what he wanted.

Best news of all though is the two letters I got asking me to attend two separate interviews next week!! So could be New Year new start and new job I really hope so.

My NVQ assessor has just phoned to say it is all complete and is going too sent off so I get my certificate in the beginning of January.

LIFE IS GOOD AT THE MOMENT