

The Vigil of Experience 1
~Susan Katz

Wassily Kandinsky (Russian 1866-1944) Abstraction, 1922
Lithograph from the fourth Bauhaus portfolio (photo: Phil)
Original digital image copyright
Davison Art Center
Wesleyan University
prior permission from the DAC required for any subsequent use.
I.
Do we own up to our own
madness
In this unprecise, swarming
universe.
Do we dissolve and fade
through the world
As shades, with heightened
awareness
Of moments…
Our shadows in dreams,
Our dreams in shadows
Courting crazed, fragile
visions
In an intellectual maze.
Confessional, obsessional ideas
of fears and passions
Live in the aftermath of illusion.
Where are the solutions
ripped from wombs --
Combing the streets of appearances
Until appearances appear untrue.
Why this need to articulate the Absolute
against the cacophony
of car horns
and rattling engines
and soundless sirens…
Can we acknowledge our sudden impulses
which convulse us in feeling
and force us to wake
Our collective unconscious.
Here is where we bury the millennia
of human experience -
Here is the common denominator -
the bared bones of our inheritance
Unearthed. II.
When David saw Bath-sheba
he did not think
of god.
When my father built towers,
tunnels
bridges
He did not think of god.
When sedge relinquished
Its living matter
When clatters of thunder
surrendered to rain --
God was there, peering into pain.
Adjacent to me -
my will in wonder.
The power binding
connecting these lines
and whirls,
measures fields.
It wildly surpasses
spiced almond trees
Eleusinian mysteries -
It divines fervent existence.
We cannot exhaust
Inexhaustible steam.
We are platelayers.
We repair the railway rails -
turning, turning round spiral ridges
of thread-screws.
We retrieve unheard of possibilities.
We angle.
We protract and we jaw entangled --
Through the eye of the Surveyor’s level
We are ever-mindful of raking day’s reprieve.
III.
Here’s to life -
not survival
Here’s to freedom -
not complacency
To choice within destiny
To instinct without ego
To rents and stains
To marbled halls –
All, all, all.. all
To Eos and the Plough
To Shiva and Shakti
The mewling primal egg
Our transparent density.
(How our common tongue is worn,
Bundled in sheaves of barleycorn.)
Over and over the same inclusions
Stopped by the moving picture
which does not move,
But is thrown in rapid succession
Upon the Screen -
Eternally congealed -
Statically sealed.
Bewildering energy melts down
all considerations…
Life is
A matter
A matter of time.
It is not
position
space
It is change
It is fluid persistent creation
It is not
redistribution
of matter
of motion
as if some solid concept
Yesterday’s news slated
for the recycle bin
Is not the state we are in.
Mind - not material matter
Action - not passivity
Time - not boundless space
Exist above mechanisms functionary.
Thought - vague nebula..
It is our luminous nucleus
Where we labor in the sub-soil
restoring
regenerating
growing
Knowing we mold our wills
our desires in design
against the undertow…
Here’s to One Life -
May it be Time’s ever-lasting tableau.