Hi, well first off let me say this is either a reintroduction or just a regular intro. or this is just a yearly update. I found in my 3 month illness state that some of my groups came up missing when I changed the state to read on the web,

First off, my name is Tonya; I prefer pandrous, which is my Wiccan name, which I have been studying for almost 5 years now, and my online name. I did it based off numerology, research on Athena, and various names I liked. I am a stay at home mom at the moment, to a now, much healthier 12 yr old son. I am looking for part time employment as of now though, my son last yr (06) May almost died on us he had migraines due to swelling in the brain, high blood pressure due to a reversal in his sleep meds, and the final diagnosis of reversible posterior leukoencephalopathy   re: some kind of infection. Undetectable by tests come to find out. Then because of all that, had a seizure, which the nurses denied, and said he was “just waking up�? Which leads to our last summer homeless spell, in which our landlord kicked us out (in Illinois) because we spent our rent money for survival 2 ½ hours away, then we left Illinois to find better medical, and ended up in Florida, where I have family but all was in prison or refused to talk to me, and no one would rent to use because we had a child, then finally we made our way back to Kentucky, where we found a place in no time and started to rebuild our lives again. Then comes my mother’s death, we weren’t close, and we fought a lot. So it kind of hit me hard cause I didn’t make amends, but she left me some money, and just in time too, while we was in Illinois�?for the funeral, Clark County, KY school sent me a truancy letter, he has missed 14 EXCUSED absences, or tardiness, and one unexcused, due to us being in Illinois, from October 17^th to January 29^th, ok, so my first question was�?did u get all the notes we sent from all his specialists? I can count, that he seen regularly, 6 or 7 doctors, ok again, my opinion, not that bad�?At least not compared to some others. So I pulled him and we have been homeschooling ever since. He’s as smart as a tack, all his teachers say he could be in much higher grade levels if he could behave and watch his mouth. But I am doing it the way we want to now, not them. And he watches his mouth with me...lol

I also have a 16 yr old son whom lives with his father, by all of our choices. Not much to tell about him, he’s your normal mean hating the world teenager with a miserable life, who’s obsessed with video games and refuses any social life.

That brings us to the last 4 months. I got pregnant on July 1^st; it was actually a very exciting time, because I wanted to get pregnant for like 7 years. But it didn’t end that way. I was dizzy, and had vertigo, and vomiting and nausea from day one�?went thru tons of tests, to find out at 7 weeks that I was pregnant, and that there was nothing else we could do. Live with the dizziness, maybe it will pass and such. But at 11 weeks, I started cramping and bleeding, ended up in ER and to be told that the baby had no heartbeat, and that I was starting to have a miscarriage, we were devastated, but not nearly as bad as when we went to the Dr. the next morning to find out the baby had been deceased for over 2 weeks, and then they wanted me to wait 4 days for a D & C. there was no way. So we did an emergency that day. Baby wasn’t growing I guess, it had no eyespots and hadn’t started growing limbs yet. Talk about a really Bad visual for me.  So we sold the trailer, and used the money to come back here to Illinois where it all started for me.

On the baby note, because I know some are wondering, I’m not a healthy person, I had a fire in 1999 where 35% of my body was burned and my health has gone downhill since then.

Other info on me, I am on my 3 divorce, and my 6^th engagement, I think this is the one though, I hope, Getting kind of old for this game. I enjoy my computer, my family, my friends, RPG games, studying, and teaching, I love to cook, clean, and be a mom and fix things. I read mostly information type stuff, medical, and Wicca/Pagan stuff. I also utilize the web for everything. I am always online; I just don’t turn my chats on. My email is outlook so it is always on. So feel free to give me a yell and tell me to turn one on so we can chat. I am all over the web. Pandrous in some variation�?numbers or whatever; just look me up... Google me... lol �?

Well I guess that’s about it, any questions or want to chat give me a yell, [email protected] or [email protected]. I will be happy to chat and make friends.

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