Today I started writing my story on pow, even though I can't write about the really bad things, its still hitting me hard, I'm sat here crying, I know my ex can't hurt me any more but the emotions I'm feeling right now are just total hate for him. Does this make me a bad person because I feel I hate him so much for what he did to me. He's very ill now because of his drinking and he's been told its gonna kill him, he's the father of two of my children (neither of them want anything to do with him), but all I can think of at the moment is if he drinks himself to death then at least he can't destroy anyone elses life. I know its a terrible thing to say, but I can't help feeling this way. Only two days ago he was threatening to commit suiside to upset his kids. He never does, he takes the tablets then gets some one to phone an ambulance for him, he's even phoned my husband before and got him to phone for an ambulance for him. He's just playing emotional blackmail with everyone, the whole world revolves around him. God I hate the sick bastard so much. Why does he have to do this to his kids.
Me, I'd offer him a glass of water to take the tablets with.
Sorry about this, but had to get it off my chest. and I guess I shouldn't really think this about another human being, but its how I feel.
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