k well its fri had a good enuff day in work the mask was on BIG time as non of my mates where on so the masked pretty much stayed all day and hey  it worked i had a couple of laughs and it wasnt 2bad i didnt die lol but i was absolutely fucked by the day was over i was sooooooooooo exhausted and jus wanted 2slepp an sleep, but had couple of drinks i thought ok mayb as i'm feelin fine i wanted 2 b intimate wit my other half as it had been soo long and i thought i was ready and NOPE  i wasnt i said no didnt want it and that was the end of that lol, so mayb i'm not as FINE as i think i am......so got up this morning hymed and haed bout going 2 doc then i said bugger i'll go next week a long way away, and sure enuff i thought she prob b off and hey ho she was typical.........so spent  next while in bed but kicked my arse and said no go out cut grass so i did as i've been feelinbg numb 2day now jus tired an quiet lol......but i think i'm over all this now as my mood not low anymore so think i am fine an dnt need shrink meds doc anything cause i'm over my wee bout of depression yeah, sorry 4being so bloody dramatic of lately and thanks 4 being there now my time 2stop being selfish and help others and stop being bloody stupid........anyway half day work 2morrow then another shitty long day sunday lol so i'll b work bed work all weekend an bank holiday here monday so even if needed 2 go c her they b shut thought bout going wed instead of thurs as i have 2go 2 parents and family do fri nite yuck and i''m sure i'll b stuck sitting beside me lovely bro and his wife but my wee niece will b there so thats ok babysitting her next fri.........anywho better go make tea tc tttttttthhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnkkkkkkkkkkkkuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu  but thankfully bout time i can stop being selfish as my depression seems 2 have gone yeah whoo hooooooo  xoxoxoxxo

 

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