well what a busy few mts ive had..well 1st was the move..so happy with the house and the space here altho again i dont know how i managedit but i did..lol..and my bestnews is that my divorce has finaly come through..ok wheni read it i did break down and just sob.....if only things could have been differant!!...if only!!...but they wernt..there was no way we could have ever got back together..even tho he begged and pleaded with me to try..i knew i could never feel the same towards him..so i had to take that route ..i was realy confussed for a few das..kind of not knowing who i was....so i went into the solic office bot changing my name..an i was so easy to do...and i came out a differant person..litraly...ive gone back to my maiden name and have also changed ciaran'stoo...ok this is going to stir things up with paul but there is a way we may not have to inform him about it..but asfar as nams go i can call him whatever i choose...i just cant change passport or birth certificate just yet..may need his permision but as he hasnt bothered supporting ciaran or seeing him...i may not...so that made me feel so much beter..a total new beging for me...so thats me up to date..paul has gone quiet on me again after having another warning from solic for harrasment...so hopefully hehas realised now he has to leave me alone xx