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NOT SURE WHERE TO PUT THIS , OR HOW TO WORD IT, PRAPS PHYSICIAN HEAL THYSELF LOL, I FIND IT EASY TO GIVE LOVE, AND IT,S NOT BS. IT,S FROM THE HEART. BUT , YRS 45 OF MY MUM MAKING ME FEEL I DIDN,T DESERVE LOVE, THEN 18 YRS OF A MAN WHO CONVINCED ME I DID/THOUGHT/FELT, EVERY THING "WRONG" MADE ME SEE A THERAPIST , LOL, SHE TOOK 2YRS , TO CONVINCE ME I WAS SANE, AND WAS A DECENT PERSON, . KNOW I UNDERSTAND IN MY HEAD, ALL THE PSCHOLOGICAL TERMS, DEFENCES ECT; I,M USING , BUT FEELING AND ACCEPTING AT GUT LEVEL IS SOMETHING ELSE.....I KNOW PEOPLE SAY "I LOVE YOU" (NOW GOING OFF THE SUBJECT, WHEN I STARTED POW, I REALISED WE NEEDED A "FAMILY FEEL FOR SECURITY, SO, I FOSTERED THIS) WELL, I WAS SICK WITH WORRY OVER SUE LAST NIGHT , SO RANG HER, AFTER WE TALKED OF HER BREAK IN, SHE GAVE ME A GENTLE BOLLOCKING, TELLING ME I WAS LOVED, AND I SCARED PEOPLE WHEN I DISSAPEARED.....WOW ......SOMETHING HUGE HAPPENED, AFTER A FEW HRS , IT CLICKED , YES .... WE ALL LOVE OUR FAMILY , AND WOULD MOVE MOUNTAINS FOR THEM.......BUT ... WE HAVE ALSO BUILT THE FAMILY I DREAMT OF, AND DEEP DOWN , WE WOULD ALL, MOVE HEAVEN AND EARTH FOR EACH OTHER, WELL BLOOMIN ECK , THIS KNOCKED ME..... YOU DO LOVE ME .... NOT JUST ME YOU, OH LOR HOW DO I HANDLE THIS NOW, I,M OVERAWED, BUT SOOOOOOO RUDDY GRATEFUL, THANK YOU ALL, SPEC SUE , WHO MADE ME SEE, DON,T THEY SAY , " WHAT YOU SEND OUT TO THE UNIVERSE COMES BACK??? LOVE RUSTY

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