stupidly i told a teacher i trusted who had 2tell social's yeah i was angry and felt dead inside but yeah it stopped things for 3years.......can remember it when they came 2my house told my mum and sister i had 2 get out of the houseanyway i felt the pressure and just told them i was tickled when he was drunk as i was the slut who caused a nightmare on the family so my mother said...............he had 2 get out of the house and he did 4bout a week he stayed with his now wife as her parents where away so he came back home week later things just got worse no talking it was all hide away i felt like i had killed some1 that i did something so awful and disgusting could u imagine if they find out the truth.......i dnt myself at times but my cause was stayimg with us an she told me next morning he put his hand on her privates and tried 2 touch her up and that near killed me we was bout 14 i think cant remember but he touched her was i not enuff he had 2try someone else? god i dnt no wats going through my head at mo cant seem 2remember anything thats probably good, images of him i can c the pain in he eyes bottle being used my god wat could she do, the force of him penetrating no wonder she shuts her eyes his eyes r just not there the look the stare u no u can run nowhere........sad and alone her voice all alone hide her knickers so she can through them away but she tries 2 rub out the stains it dnt work thats no surprise.........k  feeling sad and alone think i better go y i dnt talk they make me feel worse and make me want 2 fall apart.........no i'm not good feel scared and lost want 2go hide in a ball sleep away my lost.............