Hi
As many of you are aware, my brother has been awaiting a kidney transplant for some time now,He has unfortunately not been very well for the last few months, and has been in the hospital ..
Today I found out that my Brother is NOT going to get better, he has now got severe nerve damage, from the diabetes, which has affected his brain to the extent that he needs 24 hour care, he will not be returning home ever again! They intend to put him in a nursing home? yet he is only 47 yr old!! How can this be right???
We (The family) have now been told by the consultants that he will not get better, a transplant is out of the question as he is far to ill to cope with the surgery! and his time is very limited!
In other words he IS dying... its just a matter of time.. how long he has we don't know as yet.. But this has destroyed me.. my brother is the one person in my family that I am really close to, as children he was always there for me even though he is younger, and now it seems I am going to lose him from my life forever..
I don't know what to do? I can't stop crying, its almost impossible to imagine my life without him at the end of the phone, without hearing his voice or feeling his hugs ever again... not sure I can cope with it but I know I have to.. how??
Sorry just had to write it down..
Kathy